I received a call from a nurse at my fertility clinic today. They are [finally] putting together the January IVF schedule and now I'm officially on it! I need to start the fabulous birth control pills 3 days after I get my period. It's crazy that this seemingly routine and mundane phone call can start my brain and my heart to getting all excited with the anticipation of maybe getting pregnant very soon. I've been waiting so patiently (at least I think so) these past 4 months since our unfulfilled first IVF (not to mention 4 years). I've somewhat tried to turn my brain off to pregnancy and babies and infertility. It was the only way I could do it. Tricking my brain into not thinking about it. It is so hard to believe we're gearing up to do this process all over again. Like life, the time went by very slowly and very quickly all at the same time. So far, I'm scheduled to start stims on January 10th with a possible retrieval date of January 18th. Still a good 2 months away, but we're getting there.
I want this second IVF to work so bad, I can taste it. I want to see a positive pregnancy test. That's one test I've never passed. It is hard to put into words what I'm excited for. It's actually not the birth control, though that is the start of it all. It is definitely not the 4 hour round trip drives to the clinic during winter, although I do enjoy the me-time and the radio sing-alongs. It is definitely not the daily injections of hormones. So what is it? I think it is hope.
I am thankful for hope because that's all I've got. Happy Thanksgiving!
That is exactly what it is! Hope! It feels great to know that you have another chance right around the corner! Good luck with the two month wait to really get going!
ReplyDeleteIt's wonderful to hear that hope in your voice :) A plan, a schedule, is sometimes all that is needed :) happy gobble gobble
ReplyDeleteHere from ICLW :) I think the beginning of a new cycle is both so exciting and nerve wracking. You know there might be a chance for a positive, but it feels excruciating to wait! Congrats on potentially having a new pup, enjoy her (him?) in the meantime. Maybe she'll keep you so busy the wait to ET will seem short. Sending you prayers and sticky baby dust for your IVF.
ReplyDeleteYeah!!! I feel so excited for you at the prospect of this next cycle, thinking of you and remaining hopeful with you!
ReplyDeleteHope is an amazing thing ..you have every right and reason to be hopeful and excited! I hope this works for you and you become very blessed with dirty diapers and giggles! I fought through five years of infertility and now I have four gremlins....positive attitude is a most...even though it is hard too maintain sometimes....Happy ICLW and have a blessed Thanksgiving
ReplyDeleteI'm so excited for you! It must feel real now that you're on the schedule.
ReplyDeleteVisiting from ICLW. Hold onto that hope. I know it's hard, and I know it comes out of nowhere sometime, but it is the only thing that keeps you going. I wish you the best of luck with your IVF cycle!
ReplyDeleteHope you had a great Thanksgiving! How wonderful that you have the calendar all laid out for getting this next cycle started--that's totally exciting! I hope you finally get your BFP and a healthy baby about 36 weeks later.
ReplyDeleteTake care,
lady pumpkin
ICLW #16
I like it. "I am thankful for hope because that's all I've got".
ReplyDeleteHooray for bcps! May this be the start of your lucky cycle.
Saying lots of prayers for you and thinking of you this holiday season! Hoping you have a sweet bundle of joy in your arms next Christmas!
ReplyDeleteGood luck, I hope its going well!!
ReplyDelete~Happy ICLW~
#14 http://themissruby.blogspot.com/
~May your Christmas be filled with Peace~
~And your New Year with Hope~
Happy ICLW!!
ReplyDeleteI just got my BFP after our second IVF!! I wish you all the best in 2011 and I hope it finally brings you happiness and joy
Happy HOlidays
ICLW #50
Praying for your upcoming IVF!
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Ha ha - I've already commented on this entry last ICLW ....... :D Still wishing you nothing but GOOD LUCK!!!
ReplyDeleteHappy ICLW from #37 and HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!