I'm in this wierd zone of nothing. Nothing to talk about, nothing to write about, nothing infertility related to report. It is kind of nice to try to just 'live my life' with the beautiful fall weather. I'm focusing on work, which is pretty busy right now and won't slow down until February. I have been trying to work out more, eat better, and lose the 10 pounds of weight I gained during my July IVF cycle. Football season has begun and my husband is very preoccupied with his NFL fantasy league and the new Direct Ticket we got from Direct TV. So, with him monopolizing the TV, I've been reading a lot for pleasure - no infertility books and no textbooks. I read 3 books (three!) last week. And, go figure, each randomly chosen book that I read had pregnancy and/or infertility in it. Free to A Good Home by Eva Marie Mont is about a woman that can not have children. Great read, and very quick. I won't talk about the other two since the pregnancy thing would kind of give away the endings. Bottom line: Even when I'm trying not to, babies and pregnancy-related thoughts for myself are in the back of my mind. I can't get completely away from it if I tried.
Today, our work sponsored their annual book fair. I'm not sure where this book company comes from with all of their stuff, but it was very disappointing. First of all, there were NO adult novels. There were some non-fictional stuff, but who wants to read about Kramer from Mad Money? Not me. There were tons of cookbooks, but alas, I don't really cook. And then, there were rows, and rows, and rows of children's books for all ages, toys, games, puzzles, etc. Great if you have kids or have to shop for a lot of kids. Needless to say, I didn't buy anything. Just another sucky reminder that I don't get to shop for that kind of stuff.
We're just waiting, waiting, waiting (again) for the next IVF cycle.
Ugh, the waiting is so frustrating isn't it?! I'll have to check out that book you read, maybe I can borrow one from you?!
ReplyDeleteWow, three books a week!! Sounds like my husband. Hope the waiting speeds up!!
ReplyDeleteThe waiting is the hardest part...cue tom petty. Distractions are good, so keep it up! HUGS.
ReplyDeleteHey there, I know it's WAY early but I found you on the ICLW list.
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel about the waiting. I just spent 10 months of this year waiting for last Saturday to get started on our first IVF consult. The break was a blessing and a curse, depending on the day. Sometimes it was nice to focus on myself, but in reality the thoughts of cycling/pregnancy/babies never went away...
Here's to hoping January gets here sooner rather than later, for both our sake.