Day 1

The one month I want my period to come quickly and it comes about two days later than normal!  Ugh.  Today is finally, officially, Day 1 of this fateful cycle.  In anticipation, we've already ordered our two vials ($1,100)...husband calls them marky mark and the funky bunch!  And they were shipped today ($220) overnight to be delivered to our clinic tomorrow.  We're ready to go.  Next week, I'll start peeing on a stick to figure out when my LH surges.

Last week, my co-worker announced she is 15 weeks pregnant with #2.  Due in early August.  Why can't she announce these things when I'm NOT in the middle of a treatment cycle?  Like, say, the last 9 months?  Ai-yi-yi.  Oh, well.

Unlike husband, I'm not telling ANYONE about this project of ours.  I have only told my mom - but only because she asked.  I haven't told my closest friends and I've even made this blog private over the last few months.  I haven't told anyone at work about what we're up to, either.  I just don't feel up to witnessing the disappointment from others.  I know everyone is supportive of us, but it is even more heartbreaking for me when others know our pain or express their disappointment for us when it doesn't work.  I have very low expectations. 

Only a handful of co-workers (ok, only two) know about our infertility anyway - at least directly.  I'm sure more suspect or even know about it via other means.  No one asks me about when I'm having kids anymore.  But, hey, they don't tell me when they are going to have sex to try to make a baby, so even if they know about our infertility struggles, why should I tell them when I'm going to be inseminated?  None of anybody's business!  I'm just trying to figure out a good lie to tell them why I have to be out of the office (potentially) two half-days in a row for insemination. My brother will be in town from AZ that week, so he (and my cute, little niece) may have to be my little white lie!