Day 21

It has been 3 weeks!  I've peed on a stick (at work, no less) something like 12 days in a row and spend close to $100 in tests.  I was expecting a positive ovulation prediction of my LH surge on day 12-14, but instead, it didn't happen until day 20, on a Saturday morning!  This is really late and could almost be considered "late ovulation".  I haven't charted or tested my ovulation dates since 2008.  Why would I?  So, I'm not sure if this situation is "normal" for me, or if we picked the wrong cycle to go through this.

I contacted the doctor's office.  My usual RE is out of town.  The backup doc is from San Antonio and knows nothing of me or our situation, but he asked me if I wanted to wait until another cycle to go through with the IUIs because my positive OPK was so late.  Ugh.  No.  I don't want to wait. any. longer.  So what if this is not an optimal cycle?  It probably won't work anyway (pessimistic, I know).  So what if this is a waste of about $2,000?  If we don't do it, and they test my progesterone and I am still considered "normal", I may have wasted yet another cycle.  So, we threw the dice and it's done.

But now I worry.  Maybe this won't work (again) because my eggs are low quality.  Maybe I'm the problem.  Maybe we not only have male factor infertility, but female factor, too.  Maybe my polyps have returned.  Maybe I'm not ovulating on time.  Maybe my lining is not nice and thick without the aid of fertility drugs.  Maybe if I sneeze or poop too hard, this won't work.  I had coffee this morning and am drinking a diet soda now.  Is that bad?

Of course, this all occurs over the weekend that DH is out of town.  So alone I drove eaat 6 a.m. today (Day 21) and alone I waited and alone I was inseminated with Marky Mark's funky bunch. As a compromise, DH will join me tomorrow (Day 22) as I'm inseminated a second time.  I think it is important that he join me - even though he wouldn't have to.  I want him to feel as much a part of this as I am.  We may not be using his sperm to conceive, but we made this decision together and are in this together.